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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Why do I love her? I really dont know. I know its very hard for people to accept me saying that I love someone, especially because I have said it so many times before. I cant give you a list of reasons why I love her. But I can try and describe what I'm thinking.

Most of this she is reading for the first time, so here goes. The first time I saw her, I thought she was an angel. She walked into my life with the effortless ease that a hot knife cuts through butter. I am normally a person that gives no entry into my "world" so to speak to every tom, dick and harry. I found myself telling her things I didn't want to. I found myself wanting to tell her things I didn't want to. In an extremely short time, she became an essential part of my life. Coffee and sandwiches were never the same without her. In fact, they still aren't.

I felt myself feeling stronger and stronger about her everyday, and never admitted it to myself. I kept thinking, "This is HER dammit. She's practically my sibling. Or atleast thats what I keep telling her. How can I ever feel this way for her? No No, leave it". I never imagined that she too would feel the same way for me. One day I worked up the nerve to talk to her about it, and then, under extremely weird and movie-like circumstances, we started going out.

I cannot begin to think of imagining that I can describe how possesive I am of her. This girl is MINE. Every particle of her belongs to me. When she laughs, my world seems right. When she cries, nothing can console me. When she hugs me, I feel peace. She has this uncanny ability of bcoming my mother, sister, wife or friend when the situation calls for it.

This does not mean we have never fought. Of course we have. Like cats and dogs. We've even threatened to leave each other a few times. I know I have, at least. But no matter how huge the fight, no matter how huge the misunderstanding, one hug is all it takes to set things right. This is the only girl I can ever say I'm Sorry to and mean it. Now that I've rambled on a decent bit, I'll just say that I love her, and my life without her makes no sense. Realistically speaking, will I be able to live without her? Of course I will. But do I want to? HELL NO!!! Life is far far better with her in it....no let me correct that. My life is far far better with her AS it. i dont call her Jaan for nothing now do I?

9 comments:

Anjana Dhanavanthan said...

Ji,
thats what i always keep saying... you do things when i least expect you to and sweep me off my feet.... Ji, I love loving you and being loved by you.... You just make my world seem much much much more sensible and alive...

Love you Ji,
Your Jaan

Abhinav Vinayakh Shankar said...

NGT! sooper post! Well most of it had me saying 'hmm!'.

Harish K said...

excellent writing bro .. such fluent language and expression .. the girl is really lucky ..

Anonymous said...

awwwww.... awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....
sweet ra... really really sweet... and once in a while when you do find this kind of the kaadal, life is perfect no?

Abhinav Vinayakh Shankar said...

Kaadhal Thana naana naana... :)

rads said...

aw. damn, that took me back a few hundreds of years back when I was in love! :D

Sandhya Ramachandran said...

*claps

Your girl's lucky!
:)

God bless!!!

Kush said...

no matter how huge the misunderstanding, one hug is all it takes to set things right. This is the only girl I can ever say I'm Sorry to and mean it.

You know I agree with you 100% that she is the one for you.

And well my friend, there will be phases when you guys will fall out of love, then fall in again, then fall out and so on... Just remember to not let her go off her hand when you fall out of love for minor periods... 'coz round the bend, down the alley, you will fall in love all over again...

Yes, that's the way it happens in relationships that are to last long... Can't be right all the time, can it?

Wishing you and your love, love!

:D

Ceruleus

Anonymous said...

Reading this for almost the tenth time and everytime I just tell myself "Perfect love is rare indeed" Good luck to Anjana and U
;-)