I'm fascinated with the dark
I have no idea why
It's not just the colour
It's morbidity
Why should it enamour me so?
Is it the reflection of my life?
Or is it my reaction to the world?
Is it the state of my soul?
Either way, Reality Bites
I love that Rollin Stones Line
"I see a red door and I want to paint it black"
Am I really the hideous monster i'm made out to be?
Or do I make myself out to be that way?
Either way, why do I live up to that image?
Is it because I love the attention?
Is it because I really am that way?
Or is it because I couldnt be bothered to change that image?
Either way, Reality Bites
Every time I fight the darkness in me I succeed
But the success is only short-lived
Am I the only one like this?
Are there others who are as pathetic?
Or do only I say these things out loud?
Personally I dont think I'm that bad
But then why does the world keep telling me I am?
There cant be smoke without fire can there?
Either way, Reality Bites
Maybe I dont keep loved ones happy enough
Maybe I dont practise what I preach
Maybe I expect too much
Maybe I set myself up to fail
Maybe I am wrong more that I'm right
Maybe I dont deserve most of what I have
Maybe I should change
Either way, Reality Bites
Jigsaw
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4 comments:
Ji,
what has upset you? I just want you to know one thing ma .. you might not be perfect but you are brave cos you can face your mistakes and lead a normal life then on... most of us cant.. You are not bad you are not even close to that.. you are just being true to yourself .. which the world cant see.. that's their loss ji... you dont have to see if you have loved enough... cos to those who have seen your love you are the world.. you are god sent ma... let no one change that.. not even me ...
Loosu paiyya!!!
Inna man idhu? I thought you had come out of this self deprecatory nonsense, why now this sudden relapse? eh? why?
Don't orry ya, you are a good boy, you are a sweet boy, you have it lots of lou and goodness to give it, please give it!!!
Thing is the more mind space you give to this, the more devious it gets, tell this kuppa nonsense mood to fuck off and bother someone else!!!
thanks...both of you....needed that....writing once again has proven insrtrumental in keeping me sane, albeit relatively
never 'albeit' relatively but a big huge relatively man... child of grace, kindly get over it i say, all this is be not good for health and don't mistake my typing gibberish and not propah grammars, i jesht do's it for funs but i mean it man bleddy, tell the mood to bugger off... i no like it...
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